Just before Christmas 2024 my English-language essay was published in a Polish Journal Anglica Wratislaviensia. “Fiction at the Root of My Existence” is a personal essay about the early 2000s and my experiences as a young woman in the so-called music bizz. It’s an exploration of fictionality in material reality and narrativity as transformation. It is also a trauma story.

I would love to hear your thoughts and comments, if you read it.

I focus on the time when I travelled with my then manager in search for music business contacts and the following year promoting my first album, Poverina (2007). The music business itself, as well as the city, evoked disassociation from reality, from places and events. Simultaneously, I describe the impact of a lack of language around abuse and the pre-emptive liberalism of consumer-focused culture in which I, a young songwriter, became an impossible object.